Tuesday, April 26, 2011

I am a writer!

I am a writer; there’s little I can do about it. I've flipped the switch; cannot simply turn it off, cannot ignore what I’ve become. These words belong on the page. I must honor this, even if it means ripping me out of my comfort zone.

I am a writer, not just today. Every day is a new adventure. Every day seeks to be understood. I can only hold back so long before it gnaws at me. "What about this?" An idea races through my head. "Or this?” Ack! I need to let it out now, before these characters drive me nuts! Looks like I’m halfway there already.

I am a writer. Wrote 10,000 words in one day. Once. There have been 5,000 and 7,000 word days. But only once apiece. I know what I am capable of. So why do I falter? Why haven’t I gotten back to this?

I am a writer. I have a tendency to run myself into the ground. I start fast and crash quickly, and don’t stare at the page again for weeks. Where is my discipline? When am I going to finish these projects at hand?

I am a writer.

I need to make a change.

And I’m going to do it right now.

I will give you the time you deserve each and every day. Instead of rushing ahead, I will sit back and listen, enjoying everything I hear. I am only limited by how fast I can keep up with you, o feeblest of minds.

I will surround myself with others who will push me. Try not to be so critical about my own or other’s work. And I will finish what I start.

Why?

Because I am a writer. And writers finish.

9 comments:

  1. I loved this, Scott. I really have an issue with taking the time you know. I think it's because I have yet to finish anything so I'm pushing myself to just finish one thing and then I can be a "real writer." LOL Kinda of like being a "real boy" I guess. It's a silly mindset, but I can't seem to help it. Hopefully, it doesn't affect my work too much in the future as I really want The Madness of Sorrow to be great!

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  2. You need to be writing a book of writerly inspirations.
    Or are you? ...hmmm?

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  3. In the words of Popeye- I yams what I yams!

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  4. Love it!! Don't you just love it when the words just flow onto the page...I still do not consider myself a writer yet, but look forward to the day I can. By the way, when is Enura going to be published?

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  5. I've got about 14,000 more words to write, 17,000 to edit. It shouldn't be too bad. I'm pretty close. The end is near...

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